Honestly. They were a struggle. Some days were fucking hard. However looking back, I’ve never been happier in my life. I can’t remember a time when I just felt so a peace with myself and where I was in life. Getting sober for 5 months was probably the best thing I did. I learned to love myself again and take care of my body and put only good healthy things into it. I was satisfied with where I was living and my job. I was happy to just be able to come home and take a nap. I was so appreciative of everything. I felt so blessed to be able to look up and the sky and the sun and know millions of people are seeingn the same sun I do. However some days sucked. I didn’t lily myself, my body, my personality. I felt I had ruined my life. On those days I just gave in. I allowed myself to hate myself for one day. To just give me more motivation to love myself the next. I don’t plan on going back to heavy using like I was. I just find drugs pleasurable and socially fun. I think I should be allowed to go out on Fridays and get drunk with my significant other or girlfriends you know? But I’ll never return to that hell I was in 6 months ago.
i wish i could get drunk without having to drink alcohol
i don’t text first unless ur bae or my drug dealer